Thursday, June 11, 2009

My own "April Rose" post.

I'm fairly new to the blogging world. Having only several weeks of blogging under my belt, adding up to only a hand full of posts, and a little bit of knowledge to the environment... However, one site that caught my eye, and my heart was 'April Rose's" April Rose, was an unborn baby girl, who's fate was sealed as a terminally ill baby. Her life chances were less than favorable. "B" ( the blog's author, and Aprils Mom) had a certain way to her writing. Her words were truly inspiring, yet always seemed to leave you wanting more.. like I juicy novel.

After we lost our daughter Randi, I felt helpless and like a quitter. I think that's probably a feeling that most grieving parents would understand. Just because her body "quit" didn't mean her daddy and I were done fighting her fight. Where do you go from there? To fill this void, I started throwing myself passionatly into the stories of other children, currently fighting. I felt their parents pain, I felt their struggles. In a sense, I feel like these children are mine, and I am emotionally fighting for them with thoughts and prayers for their recoveries and strength. Needless to say, I felt this for little April Rose. Call it woman's intuition, pregnancy hormones, or personal experense from our own life, but something about her story didn't add up for me. I tried not to feel that way, but the more other's spoke up in the blog community, the more I dreaded admitting I had felt the same exact way. I started realizing "B's" posts seemed more like the twists and turns of a well written book. The one question I personally kept asking myself was.... " How are your thoughts so clear?" ( meaning B's thoughts.) Sadly, I have the answer to that question. It was all fake. Talk about a extremely bad welcoming to the blog world for me. But, regardless of this particular situation, there are REAL kids out there, with REAL problems, who need a REAL miracle. Not a truck load of B's would stop me from praying for them. :)

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Actual Article with photo.

For woman who blogged about fake pregnancy, one lie led to another


by Kim Janssen - Jun. 11, 2009 05:51 PM
Chicago Tribune

CHICAGO - The unmarried mother's story about giving birth to a child diagnosed as terminally ill in the womb hit a major nerve on the Internet.

Every night for the past two months, thousands of pro-life moms across the nation logged on to a blog run by the suburban Chicago woman who identified herself only as "B" or "April's Mom."

People said they prayed that God would save her pregnancy. They e-mailed her photos of their children dressed in pink, bought campaign T-shirts, shared tales of personal heartache and redemption, and sent letters and gifts to an Oak Lawn P.O. Box in support.

As more and more people were drawn to her compelling tale, eager advertisers were queuing up, and established pro-life parenting Web sites were promoting her blog - which included biblical quotes, anti-abortion messages and a soundtrack of inspirational Christian pop songs.

By Sunday night, when "April's Mom" claimed to have given birth to her "miracle baby" - blogging that April Rose had survived a home birth only to die hours later - her Web site had nearly a million hits.

There was only one problem with the unfolding tragedy: None of it was true.

Not the pregnancy, and not the photos posted on the blog of the supposed mother and Baby April Rose, swaddled in white blankets. The baby was actually a lifelike doll, which immediately raised the suspicion of loyal blog-followers.

"I have that exact doll in my house," said Elizabeth Russell, a doll maker from Buffalo, N.Y., who had been following the blog. "As soon as I saw that picture, I knew it was a scam."

By Monday, outraged followers on dozens of Christian parenting Web sites unmasked "April's Mom" as a hoaxer, and hundreds more vented their anger.

"She needs to be exposed and held accountable," Russell said.

Sensing people were close to establishing her identity, "April's Mom" on Monday raced in vain to delete her Web site, Twitter and Facebook accounts.

But it was too late. The online community found out her true identity: Beccah Beushausen, a 26-year-old social worker from Mokena, Ill.

When reached by the Chicago Tribune on Wednesday, Beushausen admitted to the hoax.

"I know what I did was wrong," she said. "I've been getting hate mail. I'm sorry because people were so emotionally involved."

There's no evidence that Beushausen benefited financially in any significant way, or committed any crime.

Still, Russell said she doesn't understand how anyone could create such a convincing tale that preyed on other women's emotions.

Beushausen says she really did lose a son shortly after birth in 2005. She started her blog in March to help deal with that loss and to express her strong pro-life views, she said.

She had only expected a handful of friends to read it, but when her first post got 50 comments, she was hooked.

"I've always liked writing. It was addictive to find out I had a voice that people wanted to hear," she said.

"Soon I was getting 100,000 hits a week, and it just got out of hand. I didn't know how to stop ... one lie led to another."

Though Beushausen said she used her real-life experiences and deeply held beliefs as a basis for her fictionalized account, her devoted fans didn't read it that way.

"I feel emotionally exploited," said Jennifer McKinney, a Minnesota mom who runs the widely read Christian parenting blog mycharmingkids.net and nearly lost her fourth child during pregnancy. She said Beushausen sought her out to help promote her site.

In retrospect, McKinney says, Beushausen pursued her support "more aggressively than anyone else ever has," adding that Beushausen seemed more interested in attracting viewers than in her unborn child.

"I have 11,000 Twitter followers, and I drove most of the traffic to her blog," McKinney said.

"My readers were praying for her, and I feel guilty about that," she said.

"But I have to admit her stuff was beautifully written."

Raechel Myers, a friend of Beushausen's from college, heard from someone earlier this year that Beushausen was going through a difficult pregnancy. Myers and her husband, Ryan, had a daughter who died at birth, so they did more than most to support Beushausen.

"When I heard that she was pregnant I called her and said if she needed anything, I was there for her," said Raechel Myers, now living in Nashville, Tenn. She said she spoke to Beushausen almost every day for the last few weeks.

Myers sold T-shirts online to benefit Beushausen and Pass, a Tinley Park, Ill., pro-life pregnancy clinic Beushausen asked them to donate to. The couple said they also sent her a few hundred dollars.

Even after learning of the hoax, Raechel Myers said she and her husband don't regret their involvement.

"She's someone who needed love and attention and we gave her that," Raechel Myers said.

Beushausen and her father said the stress of being exposed caused her to spend two nights recuperating in Palos Community Hospital.

"I couldn't handle it anymore," she said, adding that she plans to write one final blog post, coming clean and apologizing to her fans.

Her father said he only learned of his daughter's double-life Wednesday morning.

"She's a very talented young lady who hit some hot buttons," he said.

"She knows she made a big mistake."

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

How we spent her special day.



We took an overnight trip on Randi Elizabeth's birthday. ( May 30th) to Shawnee State Forest. We had a wonderful time at the resort. Abby of course was in heaven with the option of both an indoor, and outdoor pool! On top of that, we got to spend the time with my cutie nephew Teddy.


Shawnee is truly a beautiful place. I would recommend it to anyone looking for a nice family get a way. Due to all the recent rain, the swimming lake area looked more like a mud pit, however I'm sure in the midst of summer, the beach lake is by far more appealing. But for our trip, this momma said NO WAY are you getting into that water. Doug was more interested in finding hiking trails. My brother in law Tom, with Teddy on his back, explored one trail with Doug for a little bit. They took the term " backpack trail" serious, considering little Tedster was the back pack.

We managed to stay fairly busy, and keep our thoughts both joyful and positive, for our angel. I guess I will always feel her birthday deserves just as much joy and planning as I would invest in my other kid(s) Birthdays. After all, it was a blessed day for the Hills.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Happy Birthday, to my beautiful angel..













Randi Elizabeth Hill
, Our Precious Gift.



May 30th, 2007 - A
day I will never forget. Seeing your cute little face, as they raised you up for me to see. Just moments in this world, yet you stole our hearts in that second. You're Daddy and I were beside ourselves with pride, love, and joy. Nothing will ever take that moment away from me. There are days I replay it in my head, just to keep it fresh. I keep your memory safe. As hard as it is to do, I picture you today. Who you would be, what we would have learned about you in these last two years. So many things happened just shortly after you were born. The fears set in, the terror, the nightmare. I had five perfect minutes with you in this world. In that time, I was allowed to dream, love, hope, wish, and feel complete happiness. As silly as it sounds to quote a movie ( as I'm sure you know already, you're mommy is silly anyway.) it reminds me of a quote from one of my favorite movies. Steal Magnolias. " I would rather have thirty minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special." We do not know why God choose to take you, we are sure he must have had a reason and that you are with Him, but regardless of unanswered questions, I wouldn't trade one second of your life to spare the hurt. As a parent, I proudly wear my scars. You may be with Him, but you never really left our hearts.

Happy 2nd Birthday, Randi Elizabeth Hill.




Thursday, May 28, 2009

Abby's last day of preschool!


As much as I hate to believe it is true, it is... My "baby" is growing up! Today was a milestone in her life, and ours, as it was her last day of preschool! We couldn't be more proud of how far she has came in the last year. I would HIGHLY recommend preschool to any parents who question weather to enroll their child. It's given her the chance to express herself in a structured environment, learn to socialize, and make new friends. All which she desperately craved.


I asked Abby... what does this make you now? Here was her response...






Abby is looking forward to her summer now, and is ready to start " Big Girl School!" Till then, she would like you to enjoy one of her mini cupcakes she made herself for her preschool pals.

Congrats to my "baby" girl. Mommy & Daddy love you!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

RIP Turtle.

This morning started out very poorly to say the least. After returning from dropping Abby at preschool, I pulled into my driveway and heard a "pop", I continued to pull up and parked, then got out to see what I had ran over. To my shock, a very good sized turtle lay smashed in my driveway. I lost it! I know how precious life is, and I can't handle the thought that I ended this creatures life. I know it was an accident, but I at least wanted to acknowledge this turtles life and death. Just this last Mother's Day, my family and I stumbled across a Turpin who we dubbed "Frank" while at a picnic shelter. Anyway, in short.... RIP Turtle. I'm very sorry.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

".....and it's a great day to be alive."

We had a fetal echo cardiogram done on Sawyer this afternoon. The doctor said everything looks good at this point, and we will have a follow up in 4 to 6 weeks, for another echo. This will be just as a precaution to check again with more time/growth. I can't really put into words what today has given me. I know at any time, you can be faced with a complication during pregnancy,but this alone gave me the strength to indulge in my excitement more, which I very much feel I deserve. Given what we have had to overcome ( daily), even letting myself be excited is hard. When people make random comments about the future, it pains me that I can not do the same. Part of our pain remains to be and will probably always be , our lost hopes, dreams and future with Randi. But if I've learned anything through it all, I've learned you have to celebrate the good days, and take the scary ones in stride. So, I'm celebrating this wonderful day. Here are a few pictures of our son.


I see you!
His manliness.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

You have to start somewhere!

Hi everyone. I'm officially a "blogger" now. Bare with me as I learn how this works. I wanted to create a place on a social network more geared towards my family. I'm finding myspace, and facebook to be more for the individual. This way, I can blog about the one thing I love more than anything.. that's right... chocolate. ( jk) MY FAMILY! I'm really looking foward to digging in and becoming an active blog mama! For now, I'll give my friends and family a quick update on what's going on with the WV Hills...

For those who hadn't heard already, we are blessed and excited to announce we are having a baby boy!



I still can't believe it. Can we say I'm one lucky chick-a-dee? I would have been excited either way, but I can say though, this makes it "different" and honestly, it really helps Doug and I cope with our anxiety, and stress. The difference is "new" which takes some of the focus off the fears.. ( SOME.... but we'll take any.) Doug is so very pleased with himself needless to say. :) He loves his "girls" to an unbelievable degree, but boy oh BOY is he excited to meet his son. Sawyer Aries Hill - We are waiting patiently for you... till Sept. :) Abby is almost finished with Pre-school. I can't believe it. May 28th will be her last day. I am mixed with emotions, excited, sad, but very proud. She's geared up for big girl school, and already wants to pick out her new back pack and lunch box! ( It's going to be a long summer!) Doug started working out again, and if I don't say so myself, is really kickin' tooshie with his program. He's doing the P90X challenge. He say's it kicks him, but I've watched him do it, and it blows me away. I wanna take a nap just watching it.. LOL He is approaching his first month, and I'll be taking his progress pics then. He works 10 -12 hours a day, comes straight home, does an hour workout ( that is NOT for the weak), eats a late dinner, and is off to bed. Wish him luck, he's doing great!